I miss her. A lot.
I read a blog that had a great message that I must remind myself of daily:
My message to my new member was this: Until you learn to let go of who you were, and accept who you currently are, you will not be able to move forward. You will be stuck trying to get back to a “you” your body is no longer capable of being. By continually looking back, you are fostering frustration and anger rather than acceptance and possibility. Examine who you are now, come to terms with it, and then make a plan to move forward.
I need to say good-bye to the old me and let her go, so I can truly move forward. That's not going to be easy, but it's one of those things I have to do.