Friday, January 30, 2009

Steam Is Coming Out Of My Ears

Normally on Fridays I do the Friday Fill-Ins and I still might later on, but we'll see how things go.

I usually write my posts in the evenings and then set them to automatically post the next morning, which means that normally this would be Thursday evening as I'm writing this. However, it's Friday morning around 2:00am, and I haven't slept yet because I am so angry I could spit nails! I have yelled (alone in a room), I have prayed, I have cried, I have paced.

I'm not going to go into what I'm angry about. Just suffice it to say that these certain someones (yes, more than one person) know better than saying or doing what they did, and they know I have a totally justifiable reason to be angry, and yet, they are upset with me for being angry. Which has me shaking my head.

....ooooooo....I honestly don't remember the last time I was this mad. Seriously.

I am like "I'd like to throw something" kind of mad.

So, my question to all of you is this:

When you are so mad you can't even think straight....When you are beyond complete frustration...When you just want to scream at the top of your lungs.....

What do you do to get it to pass? Other than bopping someone upside the head...which I totally considered.


Around 2:45am I ended up going into the hot tub where some warm bubbles, soft music on my ipod, and prayer helped enough that I was able to finally relax enough to get some sleep. Only about 3 hours worth, but it's enough for now. Sorry for whining and complaining. Just keepin' it real.

Have a great Friday.


Anonymous said...

Find something you enjoy!Do not let others control you! Life is too short - love and live. We
love you.....

sara said...

I usually take myself out of reach of anyone close (so I don't bop them) and get my journal out. I find if I journal out my feelings, I can reevaluate them and with prayer it gives me a clearer picture. Plus it just gets it out.

hope you have a better day!!

Chel's Leaving a Legacy said...

Sweet Dena, generally, I..... exactly what you did. :-)

And eventually cool off. Sounds like you got in a hot tub to cool that's HOT! :-P

I'm sorry someone hurt you. But I know you will find it within you to forgive, because you've been forgiven so much. (Sorry, I know that's NOT what you WANT to hear!) It will just take some time. Hang in there!